The benefit of my job is I get to go back every day and do it again. If something didn't go well, I can try something else. If I didn't get to spend as much time with one of my students that I wanted to, the next day I can make up that time. It doesn't change the fact that every night, I feel a sense of guilt to SOMEONE. The questions are always there: Did I do enough for every child?
The answer to that question will always be a big fat NO from me. I hope it is anyway. As hard as it is to come home and not feel like I gave every single kid my very best every day, it makes me want to get up and try even harder the next day. I feel like I have a purpose and drive. Every day will be better than the one before, and every day I will work harder than ever.
In my head and my heart, I believe that's what drives me. Tomorrow I'll be better than ever! I wake up every day feeling positive. Some people don't believe in that, and some people aren't like that, but it's absolutely true for me. I walk into my classroom with intentions of the best day ever.
When it's not the best day ever, I know in my mind and heart that there's always tomorrow to pick myself up and try it again. I owe it to those students to be the best I can be every single day. Some days I fall short. Some days I fail. Some days I even fall completely apart, and Mrs. Tadlock appears as if from nowhere with a cup of coffee and a bowl of chocolates.
As I sit here and reflect on the last few days, I'm excited about another week. Huey Lewis said it best in the song "Jacob's Ladder": All I want from tomorrow is to get it better than today.